Goodbye 2009!

So much has happened in this past year. My husband came home after 8 months away, then I had to say goodbye again, only to say hello again 3 months later. His 12 month deployment finally ended! I ended my third year of teaching and finished my Master's, while starting another! We gained a new addition to our family, cute little JRoll! I recarpeted the entire upstairs of our house while my husband was gone, and took care of a tree that feel down in our backyard.

These are just a few of the things that happened this past year. Although I learned so much about myself this past year, I am so happy it is over and more importantly, my husband is home safe.

2010 will hopefully bring a decision on a new house, another Master's degree and maybe even a new addition to the family (no I am not pregnant)! I hope everyone has had a great year, and has a safe and happy New Year!

Bermuda Anyone?

No, we aren't leaving just yet, but we WILL be! For Christmas, my parents surprised Michael and I, my brother and his wife with a cruise! I actually already knew about it, as Michael and I were going to book the exact same one back in July, so they had to tell me, but it was still an amazing present.

My parents have figured that since their family is growing up, and more than likely Michael and I will be having kids soon, they wanted to take one last family vacation, without grand kids anyway. They have been saving and were so excited to tell everyone! I have to say I have the best parents in the world, and not just because of the cruise. They have always been there for me, and made it possible for me to go to school and graduate without debt. They have given me the tools I have needed to succeed and I can never repay them for that.

Ok, enough of the mushiness, I know you want the details! It is a 9 day Royal Caribbean cruise leaving in June. We are stopping at Bermuda, St. Maarten, St. Thomas and Puerto Rico! The best part is it is over our anniversary, and we went to St. Maarten on our honeymoon. What a great way to spend our anniversary! I can't wait. Now I have 6 months to lose weight and shop!

Oh Christmas Deals, How I Love Thee

You would NEVER catch me shopping on Black Friday. I think those people are just plain crazy. I don't care if they were giving something expensive away for $1, I just couldn't get up at 3 am or stay up all night for it.

BUT, the after Christmas deals are fabulous! I don't have to get up early, and I can get some great sale items (read: clothes! And wrapping paper for next year for a $1 or less!) Michael and I braved the mall yesterday, and it really wasn't bad at all! I bought some clothes for our cruise our parents bought us for Christmas (more about that later!) and some great Christmas decorations for next year.

Yesterday, I even went into work at the restaurant. We weren't that busy, but I still managed to make 75$ which isn't bad for three hours of work! I think I am going to start working there on the weekends if they need me. I don't want to leave my husband, but the extra money couldn't hurt when we have a great vacation to go on, and may possibly buy a piece of land in the very near future (again for a later post).

Today I am getting my hair CUT, finally and a pedicure that my wonderful husband got me for Christmas. Tomorrow, it's off to see Nana! Oh how I love that lady.

The next BIG questions of this vacation : What to do for New Years!? Any suggestions?

The Best Christmas Ever

The best Christmas present?

Waking up and sharing Christmas with my husband.

Merry Christmas!

'Twas the Night Before Christmas

As you run around, completing last minute errands, and doing your own family traditions tonight, remember those who cannot be with their families this year. Those who fight to protect our freedom, and their families who will have an empty spot at the table. Say a prayer for them and their families, as you enjoy your holiday at home.

Twas the night before Christmas, he lived all alone,
In a one bedroom house made of plaster & stone.
I had come down the chimney with presents to give
And to see just who in this home did live.
I looked all about a strange sight I did see,
No tinsel, no presents, not even a tree.
No stocking by the fire, just boots filled with sand,
On the wall hung pictures of far distant lands.
With medals and badges, awards of all kind
A sober thought came through my mind.
For this house was different, so dark and dreary,
I knew I had found the home of a soldier, once I could see clearly.
I heard stories about them, I had to see more
So I walked down the hall and pushed open the door.
And there he lay sleeping silent alone,
Curled up on the floor in his one bedroom home.
His face so gentle, his room in such disorder,
Not how I pictured a United States soldier.
Was this the hero of whom I'd just read?
Curled up in his poncho, a floor for his bed?
His head was clean shaven, his weathered face tan,
I soon understood this was more than a man.
For I realized the families that I saw that night
Owed their lives to these men who were willing to fight.
Soon 'round the world, the children would play,
And grownups would celebrate on a bright Christmas day.
They all enjoyed freedom each month of the year,
Because of soldiers like this one lying here.
I couldn't help wonder how many lay alone
On a cold Christmas Eve in a land far from home.
Just the very thought brought a tear to my eye,
I dropped to my knees and started to cry.
The soldier awakened and I heard a rough voice,
"Santa don't cry,this life is my choice;
I fight for freedom, I don't ask for more,
my life is my God, my country, my Corps."
With that he rolled over and drifted off into sleep,
I couldn't control it, I continued to weep.
I watched him for hours, so silent and still,
I noticed he shivered from the cold night's chill.
So I took off my jacket, the one made of red,
And I covered this Soldier from his toes to his head.
And I put on his T-shirt of gray and black,
With an eagle and an Army patch embroidered on back.
And although it barely fit me, I began to swell with pride,
And for a shining moment, I was United States Army deep inside.
I didn't want to leave him onthat cold dark night,
This guardian of honor so willing to fight.
Then the soldier rolled over, whispered with a voice so clean and pure,
"Carry on Santa, it's Christmas Day, all is secure."
One look at my watch, and I knew he was right,
Merry Christmas my friend, and to all a good night!

...Major Bruce W. Lovely

Christmas at Arlington

We can never repay you, or express our gratitude to you and your family for your service.

Christmas Traditions

I love Christmas. It is one of my favorite times of year. The music, the decorations and spending time with family. We have Christmas traditions that I have been doing my whole life.

On Christmas Eve, my family always attends the 7:00 family service at church. I love this service because the little kids put on the nativity play. They are so adorable. Then we head back to my parents house for a late dinner. We are allowed to choose one present to open to help tide us over to the next day.

Since Michael and I got married, we wake up on Christmas morning and open presents with each other, and then head over to his Grandparents house to have Christmas with them and his little nephews. I love watching them open presents. Last year, his little 4 year old nephew got so excited over socks! Adorable.

After that, we head to my parents house to have Christmas with them. We always make monkey bread, a family favorite that is very easy to make. You simply take Pillsbury rolls, split each roll into three pieces, roll them in balls, then roll those in a mixture of cinnamon and sugar. Add a little butter and put it in the over = delicious!

We then head back over to Michel's grandparents for Christmas dinner (not really dinner since it's 3:30, but that's what they call it!), then back over to my parents house for their dinner at 6:00.

Needless to say, we are very exhausted and full by the end of the day! It's such a wonderful time, and this year I am very happy to be able to share it with Michael. My Christmas couldn't get any better!

It's OFFICIAL!!!

I am on Christmas break! Students and teachers had off on Monday thanks to the snow that fell this past weekend! It was a nice, break to have, and Michael and I stayed in and watched movies, then traveled to the mall (carefully!) to watch the Blind Side. What a GREAT movie...a must see if you haven't already.

Today, I was expecting another day off, since there was still about an inch of ice on the ground in our neighborhood, but apparently the teachers lives weren't that important because they had us come in at 10. I can't really complain, we were only there for about 4 hours and I don't have to make it up in June.

Michael's new car also came in today. After two months of waiting, he got the call, and we went out this afternoon. I am so happy because I was very tired of hearing about it, and doing drive-bys at the dealership to see if it came in. I am sure pretty soon they would think we were plotting a heist as much as we rode out there!

Life is good. We are on vacation, my husband will be in the continental U.S. for Christmas, and we are healthy and happy. What more could I ask for?

Walking in a Winter Wonderland

Saturday morning, I woke up early to let the dogs out and find at least 6 inches of snow had already fallen! It kept going throughout the day, and by the time it ended late last night, we had at least a foot of snow on the ground, and I'm sure more. It was nice being snowed in yesterday. We cuddled, watched movies and just relaxed. Today started the clean out. Michael shoveled and got rid of most of the snow on my car.

Now we are just waiting to hear about school tomorrow. They have cleared most of the main roads, but many students live on back roads, so we will see. Five districts have already closed for tomorrow, but who's counting?! I wouldn't even mind going in and just not having students!

At least it finally feels like Christmas and I know Michael and Rocky had a great time!

Let it Snow!

According to our weatherman, we are supposed to received around 12 inches of snow between tonight, tomorrow and into Sunday. I would LOVE this, and am secretly praying it's so bad that we can't go to school Monday and Tuesday and my winter vacation will start early.

However, the weatherman has let me down in the past, so I'm not getting too excited just yet. I will wait and see just how much snow falls and starts to stick!

Christmas Fun!

Tonight we had our annual team Christmas party. All of the 4th grade teachers gather at a restaurant and have some fun laughing our butts off! Tonight we enjoyed a fabulous meal and then we played musical chairs and had a Chinese auction in which I got chocolate, the book from the movie Fireproof (which I actually have wanted) and edible body candy. Yes our presents get a little crazy. One of the presents tonight was a package called Divine which included edible body powder, massage oil edible underwear! Hilarious.

We also found out this afternoon, that JRoll is a super cat. After the vet said she wouldn't be able to get out the staples they put in, guess what? Yup, that's right....another hole in her side. So, Michael had to leave the Christmas party tonight to take her back to the vet. This time they used glue. When we got home....yes, that's right, open. I think we are just going to see what happens because obviously nothing is working. As long as it doesn't get infected I guess we are ok! Keep your fingers crossed.

3 days until Christmas Break....1 more day this week. Thank goodness!

Poor JRoll :(

No, nothing is wrong with Jimmy Rollins of the Phillies, although they did trade Cliff Lee :( But that's for another post.

JRoll, the kitten I wrote about back in August, was fixed and de-clawed last week. I know how awful de-clawing is (after you know how they do it, you will know what I mean) but for our sanity, it had to be done. With her pain medicine she has been doing well, besides the claws.

Today, I came home to find her stitches on her side where she was fixed were OUT. We are talking able to see IN. Yes, as lovely as that was, I calmly (ok, maybe not) called the vet and immediately took her there. Four staples later, she apparently is as good as new. She will have to go back in a week to get them out, unless she decides to take them out herself first!

Even after all of that, she was purring like crazy when we got home as I was petting her. She is a love.

Friday?

That is how this Monday has been....LONG. If I can just get to Friday. The solution?

Wine of course! Pray for me, and all of the other teachers.

NYC

I love NY. It's no secret...I force my husband to take me there at least once a year. We went yesterday and had a great time. Michael bought me tickets to see this....




The Rockettes! I loved the show, and I even think Michael like it. We only have one full week of school left...wish me luck getting through it!

Full Moon? Santa? Vacation?

All of the above! The kids are bOuNcInG off the walls! It is all I can do to get through reading, writing, math, and many more without screaming. The good news is, they aren't bad students, they are just so excited and hyper. Who can be mad for long at a little kid who can't wait for Christmas? At least I keep telling myself that!

Meanwhile, the teachers have banded together to relieve some stress at bowling! To liven things up a bit, our team ordered shirts, that's right, real bowling shirts. We found cheap ones online with a team name....

Rolling Thunder.

Tell me that isn't the best name ever? We had so much fun trash talking all day, and then loosening up with some adult beverages! Just what we needed.

Staff Meetings...

Oh how I love them. Not. I like to be informed, and it's nice seeing everyone once a month since we are in our own little hallways, but I don't miss the attitudes. There are two people in particular that bitch and complain about everything. Today, our sweet secretary recommended a new way to handle parent notes as we are wasting paper by copying them and then getting them back. Instead, they will now stay in the office in a folder labeled with our name where we can get them if we need them. Honestly, after I turn them in, I don't need another copy!

This teacher interrupted to ask question after question, when, if she just listened, her questions would have been answered. She complained about something that doesn't even make sense and isn't worth complaining about, not to mention the attitude she gave, not only to our poor secretary, but to our principal! I don't think she realizes that she is still her boss. Just ridiculous. Life is too short to be so nasty and negative.

Meanwhile, 10 more school days until break, and I get to see the Rockettes in NY on Saturday! So excited....get me to the weekend!!!

Lottery Anyone?

Yesterday we met with a builder in town. The builder has a tie in with a neighborhood that we really like, and they just dropped the lot prices! They are a pretty expensive builder though, however I know they build with amazing quality as they built my parents house 25+ years ago, and their addition to their house 15+ years ago.

While Michael was gone, I did an amazing (if I do say so myself!) job of saving money, and we have a very nice size down payment saved up. However, I feel like it just won't ever be enough the way prices are right now. It's just insane. I get worried that we won't be able to afford what we want, or buy our kids what they want while still going to Disney.

Then I think about everyone else. Everyone else is the same as us (unless they are millionaires). My parents did it on teachers salaries, and so has everyone else. Michael and I work hard, and have continued our education so we can afford things like this. I have decided that I am not going to worry about it. Everything will work out, and if it doesn't, at the end of the day, the only thing that matters is that we have a roof over our heads, a job, food, and most importantly each other.

I could still win the lottery though!!


On a complete side note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURTNEY!!! You are older than me. HA Love you!!

Welcome December!

I love this month. The weather gets cold (maybe even snow!), little kids get so excited, a loooong vacation from work, and of course, Christmas! I love everything about it...decorating the tree, the house, and having cookies around.

What do you love about December?

Today I had my MRI at the hospital. It was 45 minutes of loud noises and enclosed spaces. Really, it wasn't that bad, just long. I was so stiff afterwards from trying not to move. I have an appointment tomorrow with the Doctor so we will see! Wish me luck!

Monday, Monday

Well, the first day back wasn't as bad as I thought! We actually got a lot done and I left school feeling very productive. Surprising! Not only that, but Michael and I signed up at the gym, and I ran 1.5 miles for the first time in probably 4 months. Ahhh, I will be sore tomorrow! I am motivated right now, so that is good. Hopefully I can stay with it and accomplish the goals I have...we will see.

The Doctor has finally scheduled an appointment for my MRI to try to figure out what that bump on my neck is. The good news is it has gone down significantly, which leads me to believe its a lymph node and not a petroid (sp?) tumor like the Doctor thought. On the other hand, if it is my lymph node why is it so big? There has to be a reason somewhere....

Even though today was a good day, it won't stop me from counting down.....22 days until Christmas Break!

Today also marks the 2 year and 5 month anniversary of Michael and I getting married. (Yes, I am that dork that still counts months!) Love you Michael.

Back Already?

I can't believe our min-vacation went by so quickly! I guess it always does, except for last year when I wanted it to go fast so I didn't have to be home alone on vacation...stupid deployment!

Overall, we had a great time...busy, but great. We actually got some Christmas shopping done (finally) without having to fight the crazies on Black Friday. I love online shopping. You beat the lines, crazy people, trying to find a parking spot and still able to get great deals. I still have a few people in my family to shop for, but other than that, we are ready....besides the wrapping!

Tonight we have Thanksgiving dinner with my family. My mom refuses to have it on the same day so we don't have to eat two big dinners (bless her). One more holiday dinner and the vacation is over :(

Only three weeks and two days until the next one...but who's counting?!

Turkey Day!!!

Today is a day to spend with family and friends, and that's just what we are going to do! Even though we had a 'Thanksgiving' right before Michael left last year, it just isn't the same. We are starting the day by having brunch with some friends from school, then to spend time with our families. I would say I can't wait for the dinner, but I don't really like Thanksgiving dinner (I know, shocking).

Today is also about giving thanks, but I am thankful everyday. Every morning when I wake up to Michael cuddling up in bed, I am thankful.

I hope everyone has a great Turkey Day!

Freee

Today at 2:25, my 22 little cherubs were on buses, in cars, or walking home...and not coming back for 5 days! I think teachers look forward to breaks more then students do sometimes. I have done as much work as I possibly could the last two days so I didn't have to spend my vacation glued to a computer.

I also found out today that when I finish these 5 classes I am taking to earn a +15, I will have a second Master's. All I have to do is apply for graduation! Maybe I will see how many I can accumulate! HA

I Could be a Doctor

So I dragged my husband into the doctor today to hear the results of my CT scan last Friday. (I brought him for moral support of course! He wasn't getting out of this!) Are you ready for this?

They couldn't read it. Or more importantly, they could, but they don't know what it is. Nice.

So instead, I get to have a MRI done so hopefully it will be more clear. AHHH

On a better note, only one school day left until Turkey Day Break! I am trying to get as much work done as possible between now and tomorrow so I don't have to do anything over break. Wishful thinking of course!

Date Night

Before my husband came home, I decided that when he did, we would have a date night every week. I know how busy our schedules can get during the week, and I still want us to be able to sit down and actually talk to each other over dinner, rather then ordering out, cleaning up, cooking, etc. Every marriage needs to be worked out, and I think nights like these are wonderful for talking and just relaxing with each other.

Tonight was no different. My wonderful husband took me to a restaurant at the beach which was very good. I love just sitting and talking with him. I feel like we are dating again as we just sit and laugh and talk to each other. I don't know exactly what it is, but I just fall in love with him even more. After the week I have had I needed it tonight. I had my CT scan this afternoon and should get news on Monday from the Doc.

Meanwhile, tomorrow, we have our first reintegration for the unit. It is at the local hotel/casino/raceway. Michael is excited because he can actually gamble as they don't have to be in uniform. I was excited, even though tomorrow is going to be a long day, because I could at least stare at him in uniform...now my day will be longer :( But at least we will be together, we get food (GOOD food) and Michael gets paid. Very thankful for our lives.

No Help

After thinking about it more and more, I really didn't want someone draining anything until they knew for sure what it was (yes that lovely bump I have). I scheduled an appointment with an ear, nose and throat doc, and they were nice enough to fit me in today!

After leaving, I didn't feel any better. At first he was sure it was my saliva gland, but after knowing it doesn't hurt when I chew or swallow, he was less confident. He went through the list of things it could be (which didn't help at all), and scheduled a CT as soon as possible. They will let me know when that is tomorrow, and meanwhile I sit here trying not to freak out.

My family doctor still hasn't called with blood results, but my ENT doctor was able to pull it right from the computer since I got it done at the hospital. If it's finished, why hasn't my family doctor called yet? Nice. My white blood cell count is a little elevated, but nothing major apparently.

I need a drink.

Ahhh

Well, we returned from 83 degree weather back to chilly Philly on Sunday. Overall it was a great trip. Not very relaxing, and with a few misunderstandings and annoyances, but still it was great to get away for a week. We even got to ride Space Mountain, which was supposed to be closed until next week for refurbishment, but we got to ride during a test ride. It made my husbands vacation to say the least!

On a side note, about 5 weeks ago, I noticed a hard pea sized lump underneath my right ear by my jaw bone. I went to the Doc and he said nothing to be worried about, probably just a lymph node and he told me to take some over the counter medicine. Flash forward to now and the pea sized lump is now at LEAST triple the size and PAINFUL. I went back to the Doc yesterday, who ordered blood work and sent me to another doctor for next Wednesday to have it drained. He thinks it may be a cyst but isn't sure. Either way I want it gone, and it is started to make me look completely weird. I am trying to arrange my hair so you can't see it :(

Say a little prayer, and I will let you know when I know more.

Relief

I have made all the phone calls, arranged for the one extra person going tomorrow, finished all my work, and packed (ok not entirely, but I can't pack anymore until tomorrow morning!)

As of 3:15 tomorrow morning, we are DISNEY bound. Ok, maybe not that early, but that's what time we have to leave our house (Why did we book such an early flight? Damn) Our flight leaves at 7 and my wonderful husband upgraded us to First Class....YAY! I am hoping the huge seats will help me sleep.

I am taking my computer, but I don't know if I will be on here at all as I will be trying to relax and enjoy my week off!

80 degree weather, and Mickey....here we come!

Disney FUN

So in 48 hours I will be in the Magic Kingdom! I need to get out of this place for awhile. When Michael came home on leave for two weeks in June, it was an amazing time. I didn't have to work for the first time since I was probably 16, and we slept in and did whatever we wanted.

That being said, it wasn't a vacation.

I was still here, and for two weeks, I dreaded the moment I would have to send him back to that sh**hole.

Tuesday morning, we will be on a flight out of here! As of today, one more person was added to our trip, which means I need to call tomorrow to add her to the room, add the meal plan and get another Christmas pass (Yes, we are going to a Disney Christmas party). I also need to finish all my work for class, finish packing and try to sleep before I get up at the butt crack of dawn.

Maybe I will feel better about all of this when my plane leaves the tarmac. Right now, I am frustrated at the work.


I may need a vacation from the vacation.

My husband already knows how I feel about this, so this post shouldn't be a surprise. Instead, he should be planning a trip to the Caribbean for me because I am such a great wife.

The Weekend!

Well another weekend has rolled around, and I was able to get all of my classwork done before so it should be quite relaxing....besides cleaning, packing, sub plans and stressing about work for next week that I have to do Monday night before we catch out flight!

Today is going to be a good day though! My mom and I are going to the craft fair that is run by the Officer's Club at the local Air base. It is huge and we always find great deals. Then, we are meeting with our builder to try to get a final price. Later tonight, we are going to the brigade's honors dinner. Any event that I get to get dressed up for and see my husband in uniform is great! I will try to post pictures later!

Only three days until Disney! Have a great weekend!

I Can't Imagine...

Preparing to send my husband to war, but still sleeping through the night because he is still in the US and then learning about a shooting at his readiness post. Today at Fort Hood, an Army Major opened fire on a readiness facility killing 12 soldiers and wounding 31.

I have no idea what was going through this soldiers mind. Our soldiers are already stressed because they might have to prepare for deploying to a war zone, but to worry when they are in the United States? Ridiculous. This is where they are supposed to be safe, and not have to worry about the enemy. Today, unfortunately, their enemy was right next to them. What a senseless act.

Tonight my thoughts and prayers are with the families of those soldiers affected.

Welcome November!

I can't believe that my husband has been home for one month! Time has gone by so quickly. Tomorrow he finally heads back to work, while I actually have a day off for school business! Poor thing. Don't worry, he won't be there for long, we leave for Disney next Tuesday!

I love this time of year. We turned our clocks back last night, so it gets darker earlier. I know some people hate it, but I love it. I love fall and winter and when it starts to get colder. I missed having Michael around last year during the holiday season, so I know I am going to cherish every moment this year.

Today we met with a designer to get our house plan finalized. It will take him about two to three weeks to get a preliminary to us and I can't wait to see what our house might look like. The next step after that would be to put a retainer on the piece of land we like, and put our house up for sale! What a big step. I am sure more news will be coming in the next few weeks!

Weekends?

I feel like I spend all week just waiting for the weekend, and then when it finally gets here, I blink, and it's gone! Our weekends have been packed since Michael has gotten home, trying to fit in all sorts of things he has missed while he was gone. I love spending time with him, but I am getting exhausted!

Today was started early because I had to get my oil change (my husband said it was starting to smell), then a hockey game, which I had to leave early in order to head to the Temple/Navy game! It was a great, somewhat rainy day, but I am still tired.

Next week starts round 2 of classes. Luckily my one professor has posted our assignments for the whole course, so me being the overachiever I am, am already on week 2. This is a good thing, since during week 2 I will be in DISNEY and unable to do any work! Now if only my other b**** professor would do the same. Ahhh.

Michael also heads back to work on Monday. Poor thing....NOT. HA. But seriously, I don't think he is looking forward to it. I know he enjoys the kids and will get back in the swing of things with no problem, there is just so much drama with our district right now, I don't even feel like being there. As long as I have him to come home to at the end of the night, I don't care!

Meanwhile, tomorrow we are meeting with a designer and hopefully nailing down a floor plan for a house that we can take to the builder! YAY.

Hope everyone else is having a great, relaxing weekend.



PS. GO PHILLIES! YANKEES SUCK.

I Win

My professor (the one who took 20 points off on a paper), posted my final grade.....

a 97%. HAHA. I rocked my final project, got all points on my Website, the survey and the plan I had to write, and only one point off on my paper. Hot damn.

One grade for the semester down, one to go.

Three classes left until another pay raise....one happy girl tonight!

Unfortunately, classes begin again in less then a week.
Fortunately, this time in two weeks, I will be riding Splash Mountain. I am sure my husband would have something dirty to say about that, but I will keep it clean on here!

Red October

Once again, my beloved Phillies have made it to the World Series, and I couldn't be more happy! Since it is fall, my husband and I combined my two favorite things tonight - decorating and the Phillies! Not the best picture, but enjoy!

Scarce

Sorry I have gone missing around here. This week has been so busy it has been ridiculous. Between school, hockey, my last week of classes and running around looking at lots and houses, I feel like I am running in circles!

School has been pretty relaxing believe it or not. We had state testing, so I didn't do too much this week. It gave me a chance to do some classwork for school so I didn't have too much to do when I got home. My professor of one of my classes took 20 points off of one of my assignments. Let me preface this by saying I am anal about school work (as you know) and I follow rubrics. The things she took points off for were, in my mind, ridiculous, but I'm not the professor. She did give me a chance to do it again, not for full points mind you, but still. This the same professor that went on and on about how hard taking two classes would be, so I think she was out to get me....I have her next block as well so keep your fingers crossed!

Well, the lot we put an offer in is still on the table. However, there is another lot we absolutely love, and the builder tie in is amazing, but it is sooo expensive. We may try to negotiate since we love it so much (the extra money from the deployment should pay for something, right?) It is such a big commitment, but worth it in the long run. I will definitely keep everyone updated.

Meanwhile, our vacation to Disney is fast approaching - only about 17 days now, and I need it in the worst way. The only problem I am faced with now is my classwork. Classes start the week before and run Monday to Sunday. We leave on Tuesday so that leaves me 24 hours to get all my work done. Come h*** or highwater, I will have it done so I can fully enjoy Thunder Mountain!!!! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Some Things...

Just don't make sense, not matter how hard you make them try. The soldier who was diagnosed with meningitis last week, passed away Thursday night. Even though I didn't know him very well, words can describe how sad I am for his family.

I know how excited I was to have Michael home and to be able to put this deployment behind us. I feel like our life is starting a new chapter, and I can't wait to see what is going to happen next.

I can't imagine feeling this happy, and then suddenly, having my husband die. Can you? This wife probably thought her husband simply had the flu, and two days later he was declared brain dead.

Tonight, hold your loved ones a little closer, and don't waste your time on things that don't matter. Life is too short.

In Need of a Prayer

A soldier in Michael's unit was diagnosed with bacterial meningitis. Last night he was given a 2% change to make it through the night. He did, but results of a brain scan for brain activity were not promising. He has a wife and two children under the age of 5.

It breaks my heart that everyone made it home safely and then this happens 2 weeks after they get home. It just doesn't make any sense, and makes me want to hold Michael a little closer.

Please say a prayer for him and his family.

To Iraq and Back...

Over a year ago now, my husband left for Iraq. Looking back on this year, it is amazing the things that he and I have been able to do. This time last year, I was thinking that September 2009 would never come, and I couldn't possibly do it without my husband. We have missed a whole year of celebrations, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day, birthdays and others. We missed hard days where we just needed a hug, and having each other on the phone whenever we needed or wanted each other.

I have been able to fix things around the house I never thought I would, not panic when situations arose - like trees falling on the fence, or cars breaking. I have been able to pay bills, save a load of money and become much more conscience of what we spend.

Now that he is home, my life feels complete. I know that getting used to living together again after being apart for a year won't be easy at times. I have gotten into my own routine of doing things, and have a habit of being anally organized, while Michael....is not. I have to learn that not everything will be perfect and reintegration will take time and work.

We are lucky. Lucky to be home in one piece, lucky to still have each other and lucky that this deployment has brought us closer instead of pushing us apart. We are lucky, and should never, ever forget it.

So Busy

Ahh, things just never slow down. My husband has been home for over a week now, and these past three nights I haven't been home before 7 :( Wednesday, we had an away game so I didn't get home until around 9, Thursday we had Parent Conferences at school which didn't end until 7 (my loving husband did bring me dinner <3 him), and then today, we had another away game and I didn't return home until 7.

Ahhhh...

What do I have to do to spend time with my husband? I am so annoying and exhausted. Even when I come home, I have so much to do between the two classes that I am taking online. I feel like a horrible wife. I have my husband come halfway around the world to be home, and I feel like I am ignoring him or neglecting him.

School is going ok, I just have no desire to be there right now between all the crap they are putting on us, and knowing my husband is at home. It's very frustrating for me right now.

On a good note - he is home, and I love having him here. Just to talk to at night and get a hug when I come home is amazing. Although I am busy and don't get to spend as much time as I would like with him, I am thankful for the moments we do have and that he is home safe.

Some day I will slow down...Right?


On a side note, we made an offer on some land today - keep your fingers crossed! More info to come shortly!

An Amazing Weekend...Together!

This was the first weekend that I have not been alone in three months! It was amazing. Yesterday, we went to Philly, spent the day and night there, and went to the Melting Pot for dinner. It is a fondue restaurant that was very good. We sat in a cozy little booth together and got to dip things in cheese and chocolate, what could be better?

Last Wednesday was his homecoming ceremony. I had a photographer there so I will be posting some pictures when I get them. I can't wait to see them!

Meanwhile we are just enjoying time together. I love having him home...safe.

Life is good.

My Last Night....

Of sleeping alone! Tomorrow not only do I have a day off of school, but I get to bring my husband home with me! I cannot begin to tell you how happy I am to have him home...finally.

I will post pics, and give a story about the Homecoming Ceremony as soon as I can! Lord knows it will be interesting with all of the security and people they are expecting (Last count...5,000) INSANE!

I will be a little busy for a few days ;)

I want to thank all of my friends for getting me through this last year. I couldn't have done it without you.

At the End of a Long Journey

I forgot to post this picture earlier. There were many reporters at the airport as the unit arrived home. There is a certain VIP in the unit that creates this press, but I will talk about that later.

Pictures were taken as the soldiers got off the plane, and Michael was in one. He is third up the stairs...one head is almost hidden behind Major Sullivan (the first on the stairs), but he is the third! This was when they finally arrived in New Jersey, the LAST stop after arrivals in Bulgaria, Germany, Iceland and New Hampshire. Talk about ridiculous!

2 more days until he is officially HOME!

NO MORE WORK

No, I didn't quit my teaching job, although there at times I wish I could HA. Last night was my last night at the restaurant for awhile. At least until Michael leaves for his Captains' Career Course in October. We have trips planned for the next two weekends. Next weekend it's Philly, and the weekend after that New York.

I love the city, and I can't wait to get away with my husband!

Today is going to be spent planting flowers, buying pumpkins, cleaning the yard and house, because my husband will be HOME this week!

Two Hours of Heaven

Today, around 4:13, the three blue bird buses pulled up and returned my husband to me. Well, not really since I had to leave him there, but I got to see and hug him. It was amazing. Leaving wasn't too bad since I know I will see him again in 4 days and I can call him whenever I want if I need him.

But it still hurts to have him so close but not be able to bring him home. Soon...

Welcome Home Love!

TOMORROW!

Tomorrow morning, early, (o'dark thirty) my husband will land in the United States. He will get off the plane, turn in his weapon and start the demobilization process. Because he is not normally full time active duty, he is in the National Guard, when I get to see him he will not be able to come home with me. Instead, he will demob for 5 or 6 days, and then he will be dismissed after his homecoming ceremony.

I will get to see him for a few hours tomorrow afternoon when they give him a break. Those few hours are going to be amazing. I cannot wait to see him and hug him again, finally. I have needed a hug from him in the worst way for the last few weeks, and tomorrow I will get to breath a sigh of relief.

I am hoping that when I see him I don't break down like I did when they told me he was on his way. It is just a relief to know that he is out of harm's way and that I don't have to wake up and check my phone to see if I missed a call or email. Let's hope I can keep it together.

I know leaving him will be sad, but it will be just four short days before I can bring him home after the ceremony. Let's just get through tomorrow....

Geezzz...

This week could not take any longer. Holy cow. I hadn't heard from Michael since Monday afternoon and started to get worried when I hadn't heard anything in over 24 hours. I knew he was getting a flight out of the s***hole to s***hole #2 (Kuwait), but I knew it wasn't a log flight. Thankfully, I heard from him early this morning, that he arrive safely.

Now, we play the waiting game. He will be arriving to his final destination sometime early Friday morning, and then I will get to see him Friday afternoon. Only one more full day without seeing him, but I am sure it will be the longest day on the face of the Earth.

Pray for the brigade's safe return.

This is an Official Phone call...

I got it. THE phone call, the one tell me when I can see, hug, kiss....my husband! At the end of this week ladies and gentlemen, my husband will be in the continental US. After I got off the phone, I immediately started to cry. I have no idea why. The thought of all of this : sleepless nights, worrying constantly, not wanting to hear the news, missing being hugged at the end of the day... being over, was amazing. Just thinking about it now I get teary. I can't wait to have my husband back.

Pray for a quick week, and a safe return...

Frustrated...

Ok, it is now 1900, for you civilians (ha) that is 7:00 pm, if I performed my math correctly. I am supposed to get a phone call by the end of the day to tell me when I can see (hug, kiss...) my husband. I can't begin to tell you how badly I need to be in his arms and wrapped up in a hug. I don't think anyone can possibly imagine or understand it unless you have been there.

As each minute passes, I get a little more sad, thinking the date will be pushed back and I will have to spend another day without him. He still isn't out of that effing country. He was supposed to be yesterday...half his unit has been out since Friday.

Phone, please ring....

Expired

Last week, the the demob Sgt. gave us a time range of when to expect a phone call telling us when our husbands would be home for sure, and when we could see them. We had from the 18th to the 20th. TODAY is the 20th, which means I better get a phone call before the end of the day.

Thank you.

Hello Officer...

Soooo, on the way home from work last night, I may or may not have rolled through a stop sign.

I may or may not have gotten pulled over.

NO WORRIES! I knew him, and only got a warning. I am sure I will still get a lecture from my husband though. Ahhhh

Impatient

Ok, because of OPSEC I can't tell you anything - where he is, where the unit is, what he is doing, etc.

Even if I COULD tell you, I couldn't because I don't know myself.

Stupid Army.

I want my husband in the continental US...NOW.

Is it Next Week Yet?

I mean damn. This week is so busy, but Holy Cow.

I also discovered I was out of wine tonight. How did that happen? Military wives should NEVER run out of wine on a deployment. It was fixed right away!

One week. Lord, help me get through it.

My Life these Days

So here we are, about a week out from seeing my husband at the demob station and I just can't wait. I have been busy this week, and although when I'm in the moment it feels like time is d r a g g i n g, when I think about it, Tuesday is already over and it's almost Wednesday!

I have been busy and I am thankful for that these last few days although I am exhausted. School is busy with parent conferences crammed in before hockey practice or a game. When I get home at night I am glued to my computer for about two hours doing nothing but my online classwork. It isn't hard, as nothing ever is really, but just a lot of busy work that is consuming my life.

Tomorrow will be filled with two more parents conferences, practice and more work at night. Thursday, parent conferences, a hockey game, then Open House at School, and I'm sure more school work. Friday, school then work at the restaurant, Saturday, practice then work at the restaurant at night. Although I am thankful to stay busy, I am exhausted at the moment.

We are almost at the end of this deployment, and I honestly can't believe it. I remember this time last year I was praying time would slow down so I could savor every moment with my husband, now time can't go by fast enough. I miss him so very much.

Nothing a glass of wine can't fix for now....wine and classwork? Let's see how that mixes tonight!

One more Full Week!

This is the the LAST full week that I will not be able to see or hug my husband! Ohh we are so close!

Another Lovely FRG Meeting

Tonight we had an information session with our FRG. I have to say I was super excited and have been waiting for this meeting. It was VERY informative, and I especially loved listening to the soldier who will be with my husbands unit while they demob at the base. He was full of so much information - what to expect, when they are coming in, when we will be able to know a final date, etc.

Of course, there was the person who is also in charge of something family related, who stood up and told that we should be prepared for our soldier to be tired after traveling and not be upset if they aren't excited. Really? You think my husband, who has been gone for a year, won't show some emotion of being happy he is in the continental US? She went on for five minutes about it and all I really wanted to do was tell her to shut her effing mouth because her husband hasn't been gone for the last year, so she has no right to lecture me about how my husband will be feeling.

Other than that, it was an exciting meeting. I honestly, and surprisingly, found myself near tears many times just thinking about how great it will be when my husband marches onto that field. I can't wait.

You're Invited...

Today I received the BEST e-mail (besides the one that will tell me my husband is in the air coming home). It was an invite from the General the homecoming ceremony of the brigade on the last day of THIS MONTH! I will be with my husband in just THREE weeks!

YAY!

Teacher Retention? Now I know why it's low...

Stupid administration. I already have the most number of kids in my class out of all the fourth grade classes. I'm not complaining, but I expect other classes to get more kids before I get any more, right? I received an e-mail today that was quite interesting:

I was informed that a student would be switching into my class because she had a reading problem, and her mother requested that she switch 'environments' because she was having stomach problems. Which of course, our administration granted.

I went to the teacher who has her now and asked her what the situation was. The teacher had no knowledge of the student having ANY issues, and was clueless. So I went to the administration after school to clarify and see what was causing her stomach problems, and if there was anything else I needed to know.

I was told that she heard that the student ALWAYS wanted to be in my class and her stomach hurt because the work was too hard. I informed our administration that it was not going to get any easier in my class, to which my boss said "That's what I want the parent to realize."

REALLY?? You couldn't just tell the parent this and save me the trouble of adjusting her to our class, teaching her the rules, getting her caught up and everything else? OH MY GOD. Add it to the list of 1,489530 other things I have to do during the school day. So what if other students get stomach 'problems' and want to switch to my class? Will I end up with 45 students? Give me a break.

Add this to me being exhausted already and missing my husband, and I was near tears. Was this something to cry over, normally NO, but me being tired makes me a big baby about everything.

Just one of those days where I need my husband and a hug at the end of the day :(

Almost DONE!

Some good news on this Labor Day weekend...the replacements are there and getting settled in! I can almost see the light! So excited to have my husband home....soon!

Vacation? What's That?

So it is Labor Day weekend and our district has a 4 day weekend! Do I? Of course not! Tomorrow morning, I will be waking up bright and early for practice from 7 - 9, then I work at the restaurant that night. I work at the restaurant Saturday, Sunday AND Monday night, and I also have practice on Monday morning from 7 to 9. Ahhhh.

At least I should make some money right? It also means I don't have a day off for three weeks as I work all next weekend as well. But it's ok, because that means I am one step closer to seeing Michael. After these two weekends I have one more weekend at the restaurant, and then I am taking the next one off to clean, inside and outside, and take some relaxation time for me. You know what that means...my husband will be coming home shortly!

So as everyone is enjoying this unofficial end to summer, enjoy a beer for me, I will be working my behind off.

Welcome September!

Did I ever think this month was going to get here? No. Did I think I could survive this long without my husband? No. Do I still miss Michael just as much as the day he left me? Even more.

It is FINALLY SEPTEMBER! This time last year I was wishing the days would drag. I was planning his going away party. I was trying not to cry every time we went to bed knowing it was one last night we would get to be together.

But now, it's a year later and things are completely different. I am planning his homecoming (aka trying to figure out what to clean first and how early is too early to start) and wishing the days would FLY by. We don't have exact dates, but I am pretty darn sure my husband will be home THIS MONTH.

When he finally marches onto that field, I can finally breath again.

Less than 30....:)

Sorry to be the Bad Guy

Last week, a teacher at the high school in our district passed away from cancer. She was diagnosed when she was pregnant with her daughter, and immediately started treatment after the baby was delivered. She fought for almost two years but unfortunately lost her battle.

I feel horrible for the family and her baby girl. I can't imagine having to go through that and I am praying for their family. I would never wish this on any family.

That being said, I was not a close friend, and frankly, didn't like her when she was one of my coach's in high school. She was active in the field hockey community but only coached at our high school for four years. She left the team abruptly, two weeks before the season started, leaving the team with no coach, because she had a disagreement with the administration that happened the year before.

Now, there is talk, of all places, on Facebook, to try and get our new field hockey field dedicated to her. To me, the field should be dedicated to a coach who was there for a long time, dedicated a large portion of their life and was successful. There is a past coach who was there forever AND won a state championship.

Sorry for being the bad guy here, but I just don't agree with everyone else. Does this post make me sound horrible? Oh well, I really had to vent and feel much better about it.

Ticking Away

Well the days are going by, even if they do seem to be taking forever. We are now way under 50 days until his return, and the Donut of Misery is already at 91% complete. I can't believe next week will be September. I have been praying for that month since LAST September!

Work is still busy. My new class is good, I still miss last year's though :( They were amazing and I think I have a soft spot for them since they got me through the majority of the deployment. I have another student coming in tomorrow which completely drives me nuts because everything is already set, I have started grading and we are in the groove of things. Parents know when school starts, why do they wait to register? SO ANNOYING.

I have to remember it's not the students fault and I am sure he will be a great addition to our class. (Saying this as I pull a beer out of the refrigerator!)

Hope everyone else's year is starting off good!

AHHHHH

WOOO! We are 90% done this deployment! Only 10% to go! I can't wait to see my husband!

Back to the Grind

Well, school and hockey are officially in full swing, and my classes are about to be as well. Things are picking up around here as they always do this time of year. I have been waiting for this for what feels like forever. I remember this time last year being so sad and trying to cherish every moment I had with my husband. I can't believe it has been almost a year.

I am so happy that the year is almost over, but so sad because that means my husband and I have been apart for that long, and our life has just been on hold.

I was hoping that with things picking back up around here the days would start to go a little faster. I still feel like they aren't, but maybe when classes start and I start to have due dates with assignments it will be faster. (You know how due dates always creep up faster then you want).

I am also still working at the restaurant (because apparently I am crazy). I figure a little extra money couldn't hurt, and that way I really won't have any down time to think about how much I miss Michael. I am sure in two weeks I will come to regret this decision when I am completely exhausted. But for now, life is good.

Panic

Ok, so it is August and that means hurricane season is in full swing. Hurricane Bill is churning in the Atlantic as I type this. And then it hit me...what if a hurricane hits right when Michael is due to return home and they can't?

Yes, I know, the chances of this are VERY slim, but it could happen, and with this deployment I wouldn't be surprised if it did. Especially after what happened last time he tried to get out of that damn country.

Tonight, I will pray for no hurricanes.

Planning a Getaway

Now that we have a 'tentative' date of his homecoming (no I can't tell you, and I am still not happy it's not a FINAL DATE, or more concrete, but I digress) it is time to plan a day with my husband. The first weekend he is home, we have planned for a mini-getaway. I need a day alone with my husband. I need the time to spend with just him, eating dinner together, walking down the street holding hands, and just being husband and wife again. An uninterrupted by phones ringing, TV blaring or internet searching day.

Instead of spending money, I suggested we just have that day here. By the time he comes home, it will have been three months since he's been home. I thought perhaps he would want to sleep in his own bed or sit in his recliner. He said it would be too hard to escape from everyone, so we need to go away. Why would I argue?

I love his family. Seriously, I do. They have been so helpful since Michael has been gone. I complain to Michael that we didn't spend time together ALONE on his R & R. I made him feel bad about it, but didn't mean to. I understand he only had 15 days and wanted to see everyone, and we should be so lucky that our families care for us that much. But I need that time with my husband.

It will have been one year, I don't think it's too much to ask for. My wonderful husband has agreed and so we are going away, if only for one day. We are going to stay in the city, hit the zoo maybe, go to the Melting Pot for dinner, and enjoy our time together. I can't wait. Now if I can just be patient enough to wait for that day. Hurry up October!!!

A GREAT DAY

There were two reasons why today was great:

1. I sent my LAST piece of mail to Iraq. July 30 was the cut off for packages sent, and today was the last day for letters. I have sent Michael a piece of mail every week since he has been gone. Either a package or letter has made its way overseas every week for the last 10 1/2 months. I hope that it gave him something to look forward to at least.

2. I discovered that his replacement unit not only has their torch party on the ground already (the people that go ahead of the full brigade) but the brigade had their deployment ceremony and left THREE DAYS AGO. I still don't have an exact date of return, but this is a start! It is finally real. People are replacing them and they can come home SOON. Michael and I were talking about their replacements, and I mentioned they just HAD to be deploying soon. I decided to search it, and there it was...a news announcement about it. I was so excited I couldn't stand it. My dogs and Michael (on the video) looked at me like I was insane as I danced on the couch.

I almost hate celebrating someone else's deployment ceremony. Every ceremony means more families have to be torn apart for 12 months at a time, if not more. I feel so badly for these families and hope their year flies by and they come out of it stronger, but I am still celebrating because I miss and need my husband.

We're Running Where?

Today was the first day of hockey! Preseason is always fun. HA, not for the players, but for the coaches. You get to see just how in shape your team is, and whether or not they actually listened when you told them they better be in shape!

We only had one player throw up...about three times! Yay for preseason!

And Another One Bites the Dust

Let's add to the list of things that have broken while Michael is gone, shall we?

The Air Conditioner

Ok, so it's not entirely broken. It is still producing cold air (thank you God), but the noise coming from it is horrendous. It's so bad, I had two neighbors come over yesterday to tell me they think something is wrong with it. Thank you Captain Obvious. (It was nice of them, they know Michael is gone and always look out for me) Michael's dad, who can fix anything, literally, came over to look at it. He knows what is wrong with it but doesn't know if he can get the part. So he is calling the same guy who came to fix our heater this morning, and hopefully it will be fixed in a few days.

Meanwhile, keep your fingers crossed that it doesn't break. I am a miserable person when I'm hot.

Over this deployment and doing everything myself.

Work, Work, Work

Well I finally have a day off today! I have worked the past four days, with a double yesterday. I didn't expect to make any money as it was a Wednesday, but was pleasantly surprised with how much I made! I have to say, although this job is tiring at times, I make A LOT of money.

My sister - in - law has an interview there today and I am praying she gets a job. They really need the money, and it would be a great opportunity for them. Keep your fingers crossed!

On a side note, my brother is going to be building a closet in our third bedroom. Right now, when we sell the house, we can't list it as three bedrooms because the last room doesn't have a closet. This will soon be fixed. Thank goodness my brother is so handy!

Looking Ahead

The next few weeks are going to be so busy. I work almost every night between now and when teachers head back to school, not to mention coaching field hockey starts this Saturday. My classes also start the first week in September. I know, I thought after getting my Master's last December I would be finished for awhile, but that was before I received FREE money as a spouse of a deployed soldier to take classes. This money will allow me to get my +15 credits, which is another jump on the pay scale, and I can't waste that! That means my nights and part of my weekends are consumed for the next two months or so.

Of course, Michael will be coming home in a few weeks, which I can't WAIT for. I can't believe we only have 7 1/2 more weeks to go. I don't know if I have full realized that I won't be ALONE anymore. I have waited for this for a long time. This means I have my husband back! The first weekend he is home, we were going to run the Army Ten Miler, but due to not knowing exactly when he will be home, we decided to transfer our bibs to someone who will definitely be able to run it. Instead, we have decided for a weekend getaway. Just us, no phones, no technology, just a chance to be together again. I couldn't ask for anything more. Location and details to follow once we figure them out!

In November we are heading to our favorite place on Earth... DISNEY! They are offering a ticket special for military personnel. Michael's five day ticket is FREE, and my five day ticket is only $125. How can you beat that? Since we both have Disney credit cards (did I mention we LOVE Disney) we have so many points racked up our trip is basically free. His family is also headed there with us, so it's not just us, but we will still have an amazing time.

Now if I can just get through the month of August, which seems to be dragging.

Packing Too!

Not only did they have a farewell barbecue, Michael was also packing his tough box today! Yes, I know, still quite a few weeks to go but it is so exciting to think he is that much closer to coming home! Yay!

Tease

My husband emailed today and said he was going to take a nap before their farewell barbecue. Really? I can't get a date of when they are coming home (best guess, just under two months) and yet they are already having their farewell barbecue? What a tease.

On a side note, I have decided that all spouses of deployed soldiers should be given a person who cuts the grass and landscapes their yard for the duration of the deployment. I don't mind cutting grass, once in a while. Let's say I have reached my limit. And I am about to take All Kill to the entire yard to get rid of the weeds that are invading my once beautiful, grass only yard.

New Addition...

Why do we keep doing this to ourselves? Last Thursday, on the way home from work, I found two kittens on the side of the road. I couldn't just leave them there, so I brought them home with the intention of taking them to the SPCA in the morning. Well they had a two week wait because they are so full, so I took them to our local vet, who generously took them in.

I also sent Michael a picture before I took them. I assured him not to worry as I was taking them away and not trying to keep them. My wonderful husband emailed me and said that he liked the all black one. Really? The man who threatened to divorce me if he came back and we had more animals?

Long story short, I brought JRoll (short for Jimmy Rollins, even though the cat is a GIRL) home this morning. So far, the cat (The one we already have) has hissed, made a noise I have never heard and had her hair up. Rocky, as excited as he is, doesn't mean to hurt her, but chased her to a corner, where she hissed at him. Titan, just runs around and doesn't know what to do. Ahhh, what have we done?

10 Months...

Today marks the 10 month mark of this deployment!

Just this morning, my husband said, "I'll be home next month, doesn't that sound good?" I replied it sounded amazing!

Donut of Misery - 84% complete; 16% to go
Weeks Left - 8 1/2
Days Left - 60

Welcome August!

Well, 10 months into this deployment, and my day hasn't started so great. Our internet has been going in and out for awhile now, so this past week I had the company send a technician to fix it. Well our modem had been recalled (why they didn't tell me this, I have no idea) but anyway, they replaced it and it worked great....for a day. It went out again yesterday, and was out this morning. I called and they are sending another technician on Tuesday. So annoying.

Then yesterday, our electric bill and tax bill came in. Me, being the on time person that I am, wrote checks for both and put them right back in the mail. While I was talking to Michael today, I lost it when he told me I shouldn't have sent the tax bill in because our mortgage company pays it!!!! I went to the mailbox, but it was already gone. Now I have to figure out what I am going to do about that.

Our hot water heater is leaking again (I don't know if it's the hot water heater, but that's what I call it) Thank goodness Michael's dad is a genius and can fix anything. He should be over in the next few days to take care of it.

It's one thing after another, and I am just so tired.

Bad Night

Missing my husband so much it hurts tonight. I need him home....

Will You....

Three years ago today, my husband and I were on a trip to Disney World, when he asked me to marry him! Love you!

I would post pictures we took but they are on his computer :(

300 Days

As of today, my husband has been deployed for 300 days. Can you believe that? I remember back in October, when I prayed I would be able to make it this far, I couldn't imagine going this long without him. But we have made it.

On the other hand, with 300 down, that means only 65 more to go!!!

Loving You...

Last night I was watching one of my favorite (but very long) movies, Pearl Harbor. Yes, I know, with the main character switching love interests when she thinks her first love is dead in war, isn't the greatest thing, but I still love it.

There was one line that caught my attention, when she realizes her first love is alive, and they start talking. He says to her, "Loving you kept me alive."

Michael is the reason I have made it through this deployment. Without hearing his voice or his emails, I could have easily curled up in a ball and slept my way through this deployment (ok so maybe a glass of wine, or two, helped) Michael is the reason I got up every morning, tried to make the most of my day, and stayed positive.

I couldn't have done this with anyone else.

Searching in Vain

I have been bugging Michael for weeks now to give up information relating to their homecoming time line and ceremonies. I want him out of that damn country as soon as possible, and back on the ground in America. I like knowing how long something is going to last, and when I will finally be able to breath again, without worrying every minute of the day.

A few days ago, the Brigade came out with their monthly newsletters. In this newsletter, there were briefs from the Commander and other leaders in the Brigade. Here, they mentioned that torch parties were already on the ground for other units, and other units were actively preparing for theirs to arrive. For those who don't know what torch parties are, it is not a luau in the backyard. Torch parties are individuals who are sent to sites before the rest of the unit to prepare for their arrival. Basically it's the beginning of the end of Michael's deployment, when their unit's torch party arrives.

This information has started to get me excited. I know which unit is replacing Michael, and I have been actively searching the internet for information related to their deployment, when they are leaving, and when their torch party will arrive. Of course, I can't find anything. Why would I? If Michael doesn't know (or claims he doesn't) then why would it be posted on the internet?

Isn't it awful that I am actively wishing this unit would arrive? This means that I am wishing this God awful deployment on another family. I'm sorry, I am just sick of our deployment, and would give anything to know an end date. Or at least a week long window of some sort.

I can't wait to have my husband home.

Summertime and the Livin's Easy...

Not much going on here lately. Working on my tan, and working at the restaurant. Missing Michael every minute and counting the days until he can come home again, for good this time.

Hope everyone else is having a great summer!

I Love E-Mail

I especially love e-mail when it is from the Brigadier General of my husband's brigade. He stated that although he couldn't give specific dates (OPSEC again), he was able to tell us that we could meet the soldiers upon their return at the demobilization station. There they would go through meetings, health screenings, etc., and then come home to Delaware, and their welcome home ceremony.

He also gave dates for their 30, 60 and 90 day reintegration meetings. I complain about these meetings, because the pre-mob meeting was dreadful, but you know what, I get to spend a whole day with my husband, what more could I ask for? The 90 day meeting is an overnight one, and the Army provides accommodations - a mini vacay?

I also received a second e-mail from our Brigade assistant, who stated our last day to send packages to our soldiers was July 31, and letters, August 15.

I am so excited. This deployment actually will END!

My Husband

Dear Husband,

I don't know if you read this, or if you know how much I love you, but I think you should know. (In case you didn't already) When you first walked through those doors at Thrashers, after so generously offering me a ride home from work, I couldn't help but notice how cute you were with your backwards hat and sunglasses. I first noticed your smile, and then your shoulders and arms (still my favorite!), later I would notice how kind and generous you were.

Only a short month after we met, you went away to OBC for two weeks, and I only heard from you once on the phone. Before you left, you bought me DVD's to keep my occupied, and I quickly realized after only about 4 days of being apart, of how much I missed you and wanted you around. I was so happy to get an envelope in the mail, and was even more surprised to see that you had written a letter to me everyday that you had been away. I think you had my heart right then and there.

Six years later, I don't think I could ever love you more, but that could change tomorrow. These ten months of being apart have been so hard. How do you go about your day without your best friend? I went from telling you everything at the end of the day, to hoping I would remember everything and was able to fit everything in to our ten minute conversations in the morning. I am so thankful for those phone calls. Just hearing your voice, and knowing that you were still ok meant the world to me.

Not every day has been easy. There have been days when I didn't think I would be able to make it without you (but what other choice is there?), and a glass of wine at the end of the day has turned into three (note to all other spouses of deployed soldiers: drinking is not a good idea), but I have survived. We have survived.

I am so proud of you. There is no way I could do what you do. When I think it's hard for me, I think about what you are giving up...not just me, but your family, friends and the slots :) Your strength through all of this has made me love you even more, if that's possible. I love you. You are an amazing man and I am so proud to call you my husband.

Always,
Your Wife

Running Confession

I have been a lazy bum. There is no other way to describe it. I started off really good in April, for about a month, and then, I'm not sure what happened. Between the end of school, and Michael coming home, I just made every excuse not to run. Michael was home, and I didn't run at all!

Finally, with the realization that I was actually going to have to run this 10 miler, I got up early on Monday morning, laced up my shoes, and started again. I ran 3.18 miles the first day (and surprisingly didn't die), Tuesday, 3.5 miles. I took a day off on Wednesday so my muscles didn't hate me, and then 4 miles Thursday, and yesterday (on probably the hottest/most humid day of the summer) I want 4.25 miles. I still had to stop a few times, but I did much better than I anticipated with not running. I need to make sure I still give myself a day to rest, so I have decided to run two days, and rest one, and every once in awhile cross train in the pool.

So here's the plan, the Army Ten Miler is quickly approaching (Oct. 4!!) I have decided that if I can run 6 miles by the time school starts in a month, and then 8 by the time Michael comes home, I will be fine. Even if I don't get all the way up to 10 miles. I am pretty sure that I will be able to push myself the last mile to the end.

What do you think? Coach Dubis? Any ideas?

Will I Every get out of School?

The answer to that is 'no.' Technically because I will be teaching in one for the next 26 years, but also because I just can't seem to get away from taking classes to get a pay raise, umm, I mean further my education.

Anyway, I graduated with my Master's last winter and swore I would take a break. That lasted all of one month when I decided I would get my +15 credits. I have decided to do it in Educational Technology as it is 5 classes and would give me the 15 credits easily. About a month ago, Michael forwarded me an e-mail that detailed a program that would give me money to go to school while Michael was deployed. This money is only good up to 180 days after he comes home, which means I need to have these five classes done by Spring Block 1.

Here's where it gets tricky, there is a pre-req that I tried to take last year, but isn't being offered until this Fall. I emailed that professor in charge of the program asking if it would be possible if I took another class while take this pre-req (I explained the money situation and why I needed to finish so quickly). She then proceeded to tell me because of the 'rigor' of the program, they only allow students to take one class per block. I have never heard of such a thing, but trust me I can do it.

She proceeded to go on and on for about 10 minutes about how rigorous the program was, and I needed to understand this, and I couldn't argue with my grade, what I got was what I got. It was so ridiculous I put her on speak so my Mom could hear. I then proceeded to explain to her that I always took 18 credits (the max), worked THREE jobs and students taught and still graduated summa cum laude. She obviousy doesn't know anything about me and my OCD tendencies.

Anyway, long story short, she is letting me double up each block and finish by Spring. She is also my professor for two of the classes. She made it clear that she is very strict and follows the rubric to a T, so if I got a 'C' I couldn't complain.

Bring it.

And Another Thing....

There are many things that I have become tired with over this deployment, and many things that I have realized. Being a military family is one of the hardest things to be. To constantly worry, not know and miss someone is exhausting. No one can fully understand what it is like unless you have lived it.

What I have also realized is how forgotten our military members can become. Every day, a soldier dies overseas or at home and yet where are they in the news. Recently a high profile singer passed away. Yes, he was a great entertainer and singer, however he was also just that. He didn't do anything to better society or give his life so that others could have a better one. I am so sick of hearing about him.

He passed away on June 25, but so did 1st Lt Brian Bradshaw. Did anyone hear about him in the news? No, instead, this entertainer was covered by the media 24/7 and a TRUE American hero was never heard about. What a disgrace. What kind of country do we live in? A city spent 4 million to remember an entertainer, and yet how much was spent on the funeral of this 1st Lt, and American HERO? Below is a message from his Aunt that puts it into perspective. God bless 1Lt Bradshaw and his family. Thank you for your service and I am so sorry for your loss.

A TRUE American Hero

Tired

Of everything. I guess I am in a rut after Michael left to go back to that hated country. I am just so tired of it all. I want him home with me, to help with the dogs and household chores that I am just tired of doing. I want him in bed next to me at night. We bought an amazing king size bed while he was home over leave, and it was delivered on Friday. It feels so huge without him in it. Of course the animals have enjoyed it, but it isn't the same.

I am tired of work, but keep volunteering to pick up more shifts so I am not sitting at home by myself. At least I am making money for the house we hope to build when he comes home. (I'm not getting my hopes up though, I always do and then it never happens). I really don't even mind the work, I think it's the fact that there is nothing waiting for me when I get home (To be far, the dogs wait for me everyday and love to see me, but it's not the same)

I don't even feel like blogging about anything right now. It's just the same things day in and day out. Get up early, take care of the dogs, back to bed, work maybe, or sit at home and wait for work.

I am just tired of this deployment and ready for October and to see my husband everyday.

Back to Work I go...

Not teaching yet! Another month or so for that, thank goodness! Yesterday was my first day back at the restaurant after an amazing 15 days off. We were SLAMMED. There were only three of us on, the entire dining room was full and we had a wait. Normally when this happens we have five waitresses on. Talk about exhaustion by the end of the night. When I counted my tips though, it was worth all the running around! Today was slower, but I still made decent money. I have off tomorrow to recover before a very long weekend.

Michael still isn't in Iraq. He is in Kuwait patiently waiting for a flight back to what I like to call, the shittiest country in the world. Anway, I feel so bad for him because he doesn't have a set place to sleep, or access to the internet. At least in SCITW he has internet a nice bed and a phone to call me! As long as he arrives there safely I will be happy!

Alone....Again

I thought that saying goodbye to Michael 9 months ago and watching that bus drive away was one of the hardest things I had ever done. I have changed my mind. This morning, as they called Michael's zone for boarding, I felt my heart drop. In fact, it may still be on the floor in Philly.

Right now he is flying somewhere over the Atlantic, getting further and further away with every minute that passes. The past 15 days were the most amazing I have ever had. Just being with my husband is a wonderful thing, and I am so grateful for him.

I know that we are on the downward slope of our deployment, and there isn't much left, but it doesn't make our time apart any easier. So many people have said, "Don't worry, it will be here before you know it." Maybe for them yes because they aren't in the situation. Their significant other isn't in a freaking war zone or away for months at a time. And I am sure when I look back on this time in October, it will have gone by fast. But right now, my heart hurts and I miss my husband.

On his layover in Atlanta today, I received this text message before his plane took off:
I'm going to go ahead and turn off my phone. I miss you more than you know and love you more than the moon and the stars.

Only 86 more days according to the Donut of Misery. It can't get here fast enough.

The first night is always the hardest....

Last Day

This totally blows. Today is my last full day with my husband while he is home on R & R. Can I tell you how much I hate that damn country? I don't think I could even put it into words.

Happy 4th of July!

This Fourth of July will be spent at a Phillies game with my husband. What a better way to spend the day...an American pastime with an American hero (and mine of course!)

I hope everyone enjoys the sun, parades and BBQ's!

Welcome July!

It is so nice to write this with my husband actually HOME! This month marks the beginning of month 9 of this deployment. Think about it, if I had gotten pregnant before he left, I would already have a baby by now. Insane.

Anyway, July is starting off great. My husband is home for another 5 days (still not long enough), we saw the Hangover today (insanely funny) and the weather has been gorgeous out which has allowed me to work on my tan.

Life is good.

2 Years and Counting..

Today is our second wedding anniversary. I feel so blessed to be able to spend it with my husband. Although this deployment has been tough, there is no one else in the world I would wait for. When I think I can't get through another day without him, I just think of his smiling face, or his cute laugh when something is really funny and I know that I have no other choice.



Michael I love you and I am so happy to call you my husband. I know we will have many more years of happiness together.

What Happens in Dewey...

Back in the day, Dewey used to be the coolest place to hang out in the summer. I am sure for some people it still is. Dewey is the type of beach where there are streets of bars and drunken people falling over themselves. It is so crazy down there it had its own reality TV show on Real TV. I had my moment were Dewey was so much fun. There have been a ton of memories there, after all, it is where I met my husband :)

But those days have come and gone. I just don't see the point in driving down there to get wasted and pay money when I can do the same thing in my house, not have to worry about driving somewhere or paying a lot of money to drink or stand in lines.

Well today is the day we are revisiting those days! Today is one of Michael's friends birthdays and we are traveling down there with a group of people to celebrate. I haven't been in about two years, so it should be interesting. Wish me luck and pray I don't get too annoyed by all the 'young' people there who are wasted, bumping into me or try to hit on my husband. They might get 'accidentally' punched in the face! HA

What a Beautiful Day!

The last two days have been amazing here! It is finally sunny, after weeks of rain. The husband and I were able to lay in the pool yesterday and today. It finally feels like summer and my summer tan is finally starting to look up. My husband's on the other hand....well we have time to work on it, poor thing!

This is also my 200th post! I can't believe it. It has been a great outlet throughout this deployment. It's nice to be able to write what I am thinking or feeling on days. Now we are in the double digits of this deployment and I received an email today about a reintegration meeting that is coming up in August! Yay!

Trying Out for the Olympics

Last night we had Michael's birthday party. It was a great opportunity for him to see all his friends while he was home and just have a fun night. Originally the plan was for him to drink and hang out. Well that plan never works, because he only has like two beers and then decides to stop drinking. That plan was fine with me last night, because I more than made up for his non-drinking.

Let's just say, that by the end of the night, my best friend, sister-in-law and me were doing synchronized jumps off the diving board into my parents pool. It was the most fun I have had in a long time, even if my husband did say we acted like we were twelve. I just hope my fun didn't take away from his, even though I am pretty sure he was amused at the three of us acting like idiots!

100 Moreee

Only 100 days left in this God awful deployment. YAY! I can't believe it. I remember when there were 100 days left until Michael came home. By the time he has to go back we will be down in the 80's and double digits!

Speaking of leaving...I already had my first breakdown about him leaving again. (I know, completely stupid) It is so nice having him, I can't even explain it and no one can fully understand it unless you are away from someone you love for an extended time (more than a month thank you). It is amazing waking up next to him, cuddling, making me breakfast, simply yelling out "I love you" or holding my hand.

I love my husband so very much.

Happy Birthday to ME!

So far, this has been the best birthday ever! My husband is able to be with me, and not only that, I woke up to him cooking me breakfast, roses and a wonderful birthday card.

It has been an amazing day already and it's not even 8 am! Yay!

Now Arriving at Gate...

Michael finally landed yesterday! His flight was originally supposed to come in at 2:30, but was delayed a half hour by the time we got to the airport. We (me and his mom) were able to get special passes to go right to the gate, which was really nice. The time for his plane touchdown came and went, and by this point I was almost losing it.

Finally, an hour late, his plane taxied to the gate. I swear it felt like he was the last one to get off the plane (I'm sure he wasn't), but I was so excited to see him. I saw him before he saw me, and I started to get teared up, but was able to pull myself together by the time I got to hug him.

It was the best feeling in the world...

So frustrated...

Ok, so originally Michael was supposed to be home Thursday like I stated in the last post, but that didn't work out. Then he was supposed to get a flight out and be home Friday. I hadn't heard anything all day yesterday, so I assumed he was in flight on his way home. Then I got an email at one in the morning, stating that they had 'the worst sand storm in at least a year' and all flights were cancelled. Damn desert.

So, he tried to go again today. I haven't heard anything all day, but I don't know if this is a good or bad sign. Yesterday when I didn't hear anything I thought it was good because it meant he was in flight...now I don't know. I called my brother in law on the way home from work and he looked up the weather for me. Under Baghdad, it says 'widespread dust.' Not a good sign....

I am thinking I haven't heard anything because he is still sitting in the airport waiting. I would like to scream I am so frustrated. We had tickets for a baseball game, but we can't go to that now. Tonight was my last night of work, and was planned out perfectly for those 16 days off, now I have to push it back and take more time off. It is all so frustrating when everything else had been going so well.

I know in the end it's just one more day, and I have already waited 8 months, but I so had my hopes up. Say a prayer that he got out of Iraq today :(

Of Course...

So just when I got my hopes up that my wonderful husband would be home Thursday...Of course, he won't be home until Friday now. He was going to get a flight out tonight, but apparently that wasn't happening anymore, so he is there one more night.

I don't know what my problem is. You would think after 8 months, what's one more day? When he emailed me I was completely sad, to the point where I almost started crying at work - pathetic right? So, I guess I have to add a day to the countdown...

3 :(

To top it all off, I was supposed to meet my best friend for dinner, but that has been changed to a later date. I guess I'll sit home and drink by myself...what else is new? HA

New Look!

How do you like the new layout? Michael picked the original one, but since he NEVER posts on here, or leaves me comments, I decided I would make it a little prettier. I was trying to find something patriotic, but this design won out! Love it.

Well today was very productive. I woke up early and put all of the animals bedding in the washer and then dropped them off at the Groomers. They are too cute, and smell delicious now! Well, maybe not delicious, but better than they did! I then ran to the grocery store, stocked up some of Michael's favorite foods. I still have to pick up a few goodies though! Then I had a blissful, much needed one hour massage! Then came home, scrubbed the bathrooms, took a shower and ran off for a pedicure. Then picked up the 'kids,' came home, vacuumed and cleaned Michael's car (and mine) and now am relaxing on the couch. Whew! What a day.

Michael is all finished at work. He got in the last of the paperwork he needed to complete his tasks, and spent the rest of today packing and cleaning up his CHU (The abbreviation for his 'home' away from home). Tomorrow is his last day at work. I know he is so excited, and I cannot wait to see him! There is light at the end of the tunnel!

THIS Week!

I can now officially say my husband will be home THIS WEEK. I cannot wait. I have been calm and handled myself fairly well. Now I am starting to get anxious. I know this sounds weird, but I am more nervous about all of his flying around the world to get home, than I am when he is in Iraq. I know, I can't believe I just wrote that.

Anyway, tomorrow I am completely off and it is a busy day! The dogs are getting dropped off at the groomer so they look handsome when Michael comes home. In the meantime, I am going to go grocery shopping (I kid you not when I say I have been eating oatmeal for three days), at 11 I have a one hour massage (yay), then off to get a pedicure, and then lots of cleaning. It is going to be a great day.

Now relaxing with a glass of wine (to calm the nerves) and waiting for Army Wives! I LOVE this show!

USO Tour

There have been some people that have come to visit while Michael has been deployed. I know he has had a chance to see the President (both!), the actors from 'The Unit,' The Raider Cheerleaders, among others. Steven Colbert was recently over there as well. I had heard something about it, but unless Michael tells me he will be on the news, I don't really pay attention. I did come across this quote though and thought it was nice. Perhaps more people should be sent overseas and then maybe they will understand what military families go through. Just maybe.

"Finally, I want to thank the troops here and around the world. I am rarely at a loss for words but when I think of all you have sacrificed for your country these past six years it really seems insufficient to say thank you and really inappropriate to say holy shit so I'll just say what I hope you can all say soon, "Honey, I'm coming home."

-Stephen Colbert at the end of his USO tour in Iraq