Patiently Waiting

I am the Best Wife Ever

I know some of you may disagree (Courtney), but it's true. I have successfully completed our taxes.

YAYYYYYY

You will be happy to know that we are getting over $5000 back. I can thank the interest on my mortgage for that, and our college classes we have taken towards our Master's. Michael kept saying that if we didn't get a good refund he would blame it on me....well now he can't because I am awesome!

I was also able to get a package sent to him in the mail today after he sent me on a run to GNC yesterday. I swear that store can suck the money right out of you. Michael is on a quest to 'lose weight and get ripped' before he comes home in June. Hey, whatever keeps him busy.

We had a great conversation on the phone today. It definitely started my day out on the right foot. I love talking to him and hearing his voice. It just lets me know that he is doing ok. I can tell in his voice when something is wrong, or when he is lying. He swears I can't do this, but he is the worst liar on the face of the Earth - I don't even have to see him to know that he isn't telling me something. We have also decided to get our house appraised. I called the realator today and made an appointment for Friday so we will see how much we can sell our house for. If we have lost too much of the value, then we have decided to stay here for a few more years until we can save up some more money. Perhaps my plan of building before we have kids isn't going to work. I guess we will find out soon enough!

What to say....

Sometimes there just isn't anything that can be said besides :

I miss my husband. :(

I love and miss you Michael Scott.



At least one more week is beginning - which means soon, one more week will be over. It's been almost 5 months....

Tackling the Taxes!

Before Michael left, he said not to worry about the taxes, he would be granted an extension because he was out of the country and he would do them when he came back. Well, as tax season is upon us, and I am a Type A personality, I started to worry:

1. He was never granted an extension - he would have been but he didn't ask for it.
2. Does his extension include me? I am still in the U.S. and we file separate (but married)
3. Will I be arrested?
4. Why can't I just do them?
5. I seem to worry often

Then I figured, instead of worrying about the IRS coming after me, why couldn't I do them? I have accomplished a lot of other things around the house, I'm sure I can do this. I had already filed away all of the W2's I got in the mail, so I am sure I just have to punch some numbers into Turbo Tax.

Thank God for parents! My Pop has been doing his taxes LONG HAND (no Turbo Tax for this man), forever, and said that he would help me. He is even doing ours on the written forms to save us money on Turbo Tax! This weekend I will learn how to do taxes. God help me! At least it's one less thing for Michael to worry about. I will definitely update you on this adventure later this week.

A Wonderful Weekend

Although the weather was cold and windy, I still had a great time. I got to the beach around 1 on Saturday. I got to visit with Bacon and her family and that night we celebrated her birthday. We had Fondue! I have never had it before, but always wanted to try. There is a restaurant north of us called the Melting Pot that has all kinds of Fondue so maybe I will actually go now!

Anyway, Sunday we went to the outlets, had some brunch and relaxed. It really was a nice, peaceful weekend. I got home today around 1 to some very happy 'kids.' Rocky, Titan and Remy were happy to see me, and I did miss them. Another work week begins, which means another week is in the process of being OVER! 228 days to go!

Going to Carolina in my mind....

Actually in person! Tomorrow I am headed down to see my college roommate. We were lucky enough to be paired together freshmen year. We are definitely the complete opposites, but we worked very well together. She made sure I went out and partied, and I made sure she actually did her work. Senior year she even got straight A's. I was so proud.

The one thing I remember about visiting her family in Nags Head was just how relaxing it was. I used to sleep so good with the window cracked open, cuddled under the blanket, listening to the ocean. I am praying that this weekend I will sleep through at least one night without waking up. It would be the first time in 5 months. Here's hoping! I am so excited to see her!

R.I.P. Bullet

Bullet, my parents dog who they have had since I was 10 was put to sleep today. He was a Weimaraner, and is a bigger dog, who has a normal life expectancy of around 10 years. He would have been 16 in June! I love you Bullet.

Biggest Loser

The title of this show is appropriate for more than one reason. I like to watch this show sometimes because it kicks my ass in gear when I feel too lazy to do anything. If they can do it, then I sure as heck can. Anyway, so I was watching tonight and a girl who won one of the challenges won a 24 hour stay with her family. She is in tears, bawling about being apart from her family for 6 weeks. She said, and I quote, "I just feel like I want to die, I don't know how I can be apart from them for 6 weeks..." My response. Go f*** yourself. Seriously. I am so SICK of people complaining about being apart for a week, or a WEEKEND. Send your loved one to Iraq for a year to 15 months and then you can complain.

I know not everyone will ever be in a situation similar to the one I am in, so 6 weeks is a big deal to them, so perhaps I can sympathize with them. But to the people who complain about a weekend....you should be thanking God that it's a weekend. It has been three months since I have touched my husband, seen his face clearly, or talked to him for more than 10 minutes at a time....and we aren't even halfway to our end point. So to those people and their weekend - fuck you.

That was my harsh rant for the week. Sorry.

College Days

After I got back from my run today, and was stalking, umm I mean looking, up people on Facebook, I realized how much I miss my days at ECU. I miss my friends from there, the tailgating, football games, crazy basketball games, the wonderful stories from being an RA, walking to class instead of driving, and weekend brunch.

Man I miss the dining hall. I thought I would never say that, but honestly the food was pretty good, and I didn't have to cook, or shop. I was lucky enough to live on the side of campus that was right next to the new dining hall. It was called West End Dining, but we renamed it Dubis Dining....it has a much nicer ring to it. There was Taco Tuesday, Wing Wednesday, and brunch on the weekends. I think I ate a cheese omelet every week. They were delicious!

Don't get me wrong, I love my life now. I am so thankful for Michael and our house and my job. There was just something very simple about college. Of course at the time I am sure it was filled with drama, and I know I couldn't wait to graduate and make money. I think they should build dining halls in neighborhoods. I could buy a meal plan and just walk there every day. Who else is in? I think this idea should be patented.

My Officer!

Michael has been waiting for his promotion for about 5 months now...but who's counting!? Today he got the news that that paperwork went through, and his promotion will happen on Saturday! I am so proud of him, and so happy. I know that even if he doesn't say it, he is very happy himself. You can now refer to him as Captain Michael Sharp!

Off to the right is the new rank insignia. 1st LT was one bar, Captain is double bars. I wish I was there to pin him, but I guess I can pin on Major in four years!

Blackberry is Amazing!

I know I only swore I would have it for the year Michael was deployed in order to get his e-mails no matter where I was, but I am addicted. As you know, I spilled nail polish remover on my phone and cried for 30 minutes because I was so upset that I had lost a few pictures Michael had sent me. Somehow, the phone managed to turn on and still work! It did have problems with the screen, and Michael convinced me to just get another one.

Since Blackberry is amazing, I was able to download EVERYTHING onto the computer and transfer it to the new one! Even text messages and ALL of my pictures. Yes, the one where Michael is masked and sitting by an M-16 is still my home screen image. Thank goodness! I love technology today!

Forrest Gump

This is one of my all time favorite movies! I love it...Tom Hanks is amazing, and it is an incredible story. Tonight, I happened to turn it on to the exact spot where Forrest says :

"But at night time when there was nothing to do, and the house was all empty...I'd always think of Jenny."

Of course, the truth is I always think of Michael...but something about the nights always makes it worse. Maybe it's because I have no one to talk to (yes, I talk to Rocky, Titan and Remy, but they just look at me), or maybe it's because there is no one to cuddle to in bed, and it takes twice as long to get warm under the covers, or maybe it's because I know I actually have to get myself out of bed the next day instead of my husband cuddling for five minutes to get warm as he has already gotten a shower and run back to the bed to find my body heat. Or maybe it's a combination of all of them.

Today was just a long day in general. The kids were crazy, and apparently I don't teach as I gave them a math quiz and half of them stared at the paper like I had just handed them a test in French. It is so frustrating sometimes. But tomorrow is a new day, and one day closer to Michael. Yay!

Welcome February!

Yay! Another month is finished - if your counting, that's 4 down, 8 to go! It has gone by fast, even if I don't think so on a day to day basis. I know I say this every month, but it really is true!

Things have been going well...school is school, same as always. The kids always have a way to make me laugh, and sometimes drive me crazy. Another SuperBowl has come and gone, and it was actually exciting even if the Eagles weren't in it. Unfortunately during the Super Bowl, I knocked over a bottle of nail polish remover ON MY PHONE. RIP Blackberry #1. It surprisingly still works, but the screen is messed up and the keys get stuck. I rode up to Dover today to Verizon, and of course once I get up there, they inform me I just need to call a number! Now I am in the process of trying to figure out how to transfer my information and pictures and numbers. This is the time I wish Michael was here!!