That Girl

Before my husband deployed, I would look forward to drill weekend. I would have the day to myself to be able to complete work for school, clean the house (the way I want, sorry Mike) and not have anyway in the way! I was ok with him being gone because he was going to home at night. I am sorry, but if you can't spend 8 hours away from your significant other without having a breakdown, perhaps you need to do some soul searching.

Even during the deployment, I think I handled myself fairly well. Of course I still had my bad days (read: curled up on the couch with a glass of wine and cry my eyes out to various movies, while playing homecoming ceremonies on YouTube wishing it was me = pathetic), however, I was able to pull it together the next day and get back to the grind. I had great family and friends, and, being the over achiever I am, always had a project to complete.

Fast forward to now. My husband has been home for 6 months (time flies when they are home), and I dread drill weekends. He is gone today, and yes he will be home tonight, but I miss him so much. The thought of him leaving on AT for two to three weeks makes me want to cry. So when did I turn into that girl? I mean, if anything I should be stronger because I survived a year without him. Neither of us is clingy to each other, we value alone time because it makes together time so much more special, and we need separate friend time, but now I find myself wanting to be with him ALL the time. Has this happened to anyone else? What is a girl to do?

Well today, I will be planting grass seed, but that's a different post!