Germ X Anyone?

It's time I come clean. I am somewhat of a germ freak. Before I had Patrick, I was not that bad. Of course, working with little kids I constantly washed my hands and try to Lysol the class computers and doorknobs as much as possible. Now that Patrick is here, I am ten times worse.

I HATE it when other people try to touch him. If they aren't a family member, they need to ASK. Even family members have to wash their hands, so when someone, who I don't know, comes up to him and tries to touch him, I get this panicked feeling and quickly move him out of their way. I try not to be rude, and I don't mean to be, but I have a very real fear of him getting sick. He hasn't had all of his shots yet, come on people!

My Mom and I went out to eat one night with Patrick. He was sitting in his car seat doing a great job all throughout dinner. He had a pacifier in his car seat just in case (I don't know why I even had it there, he won't take one!) An older gentleman came by, started to touch his cheek, pat his head and then PICKED UP HIS PACIFIER BY THE NIPPLE PART and proceeded to put it into Patrick's mouth. I immediately pulled it out and put it in the baby bag to be destroyed later. Laugh if you want, but you don't know where his hands were! I was very calm, but my mom could see my panic. She explained to the man that he actually doesn't take a pacifier and after a few minutes the man left. My Mom commented on how good I handled it (she knows how I am). I felt like I needed my inhaler.

My Mom keeps telling me he needs to be exposed to germs so he won't be so sick later. I agree, but not when he is only 3 months old! A sweet lady in our school recently experienced the passing of her 6 week old granddaughter due to bacterial meningitis. They have no idea how she contracted it. THIS IS WHY I PANICK!

I cannot begin to imagine how I would feel if he ever got sick. Even a cold, I think I would feel guilty about! Therefore, I sanitize. I don't go INSANE because I don't know what those chemicals will do to him, but I do make sure everything is at least washed in very HOT water with soap.

Am I the only one that feels like this? I kind of feel insane.