Never a Good Idea

Drinking - never good, when you are already prone to being sad. Wine has been the devil! I haven't had a drink in awhile because I knew it was a depressant, and that is never good. I didn't even have a drink on New Years!

As I sit here tonight, and have a glass of wine (although that doesn't help), I know it isn't the wine, but I miss Michael terribly. I won't see him for more than six months still! Can you imagine that? Six fucking months. I can't. It has been a month and a half since I last saw him, and in the last two weeks, despite Christmas and New Year's I have done surprisingly well, until tonight. I guess that's the name of the game. I have ups and downs.

God help me through the next six + months until I get to see him again.