Yes, it's true. When Michael reads this, he may not agree with me, but I swear it's true. Back in the day, when just a weekend apart from him was unbearable (If I only knew....) I always noticed how his attitude would change. I started saying I hated drill weekends because he came home every night miserable and with an attitude. I knew it wasn't my fault, but it was just annoying!
Because of this, I should have known this would happen. Poor Michael is in a bad mood again. Maybe not a bad mood, but at least touchy. I have noticed it more in the past week or so, and it may be because things are much busier down there now, and they are getting ready to leave. Either way, he is grumpy. It makes our phone conversations sad sometimes. I really don't want to argue with him or get in a fight. We only get to talk MAYBE ten minutes a day, so our time is precious. It gets me very upset when we will get in a fight over something so ridiculous.
I know he is stressed, I can't even begin to imagine what he is going through. Whenever I start to get upset I just tell myself that it's not so bad for me, at least I am home. My heart aches for him everyday. But I wish sometimes he would realize how much stress I am under too. For the first time I am doing ALL of the house bills by myself, trying to get some sleep without worrying someone is going to break into the house, spend time with our dogs somewhere in my busy schedule, finish my Master's, and hold it together for the outside world. I know this stress is completely different from his, but the point is, we both have it. I make a point to be happy on the phone so he doesn't worry (It doesn't work all the time, but I try, ok) I just wish we could both do better sometimes. I know seeing him next week will help so much, but I can't rely on that. The next time I see him will be in 8 months. Seeing him will obviously not work during those 8 months since it won't be happening! I know this deployment will bring us closer, but it is hard to see that when you are in the middle of it.
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Look, I like being adventurous. So why don't we just get on a plan and go to Iraq when he's there. I'm sure there is a direct flight or something ;) Also...if McCain had won Mark wouldn't want to leave the country.
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