Marriage

My marriage is wonderful. I know it's a cliche, but I really do love him more now then I ever have. When I look at him, I am so thankful I have him and still get chills when he kisses me or touches me. Is that too much information? Anyway, with the upcoming deployment, I guess I am scared that this year will change us somehow. We just got married last year, and our relationship is amazing. It's not fair that we already have to be separated for a year and that everything may change. I have read articles and watched shows that say when soldiers come home they are never the same. Now granted, they are talking about soldiers who see hard combat. I am praying that Michael will not have to see any of this, let alone fire his weapon. I guess there is no telling how someone is affected until they come home. Perhaps I should worry about him actually leaving first.

I was thankful that they were having a ceremony the day before the unit actually left. Michael told me they planned this so family and friends wouldn't have to watch the buses leave. His mom told me that was the hardest part of the last deployment. I have now been informed by the FRG leader that they are having a ceremony on the day of as well. I guess the ceremony the day before is expected to draw a big crowd since it is in a public venue and it is an election and a prominent member of the judicial branch is deploying with the unit. Therefore, they have decided to hold an additional ceremony for family and friends on the day of. I expected just to drop him off and have a private moment with him before he went inside of the building. I guess that idea is out the window. I am sure I will be fine, it's just another event that makes this deployment very very real, and very, very close.